“MAYBE I’M NOT CUT OUT TO BE A GOOD MOM.”
It was this thought running through my head that made me stop.
I DIDN’T SEEM TO HAVE IT ALL TOGETHER LIKE THE OTHER MOMS.
I was exhausted and frustrated with my kids.
The simplest things brought out my momster mom….Who am I kidding?? She was alive and well far too often than I’d like to admit.
I WAS FRUSTRATED BECAUSE I WASN’T ACTING LIKE THE MOM I’D DREAMT I WOULD BE.
But the constant noise, shuffling from one thing to the next, the never ending to do list, the constant cleaning up, and someone needing something (even when I was in the shower) had me feeling so worn thin.
Each morning when I hit snooze for the 15th time, I’d wonder if I was actually going to be able to make it through the day….with all kids alive and my sanity intact.
My coconut oil+stevia coffee & bedtime were my 2 saving graces. (How did moms before amazon prime make it?!)
There was nothing inherently wrong with me life from the outside…but on the inside I was struggling and felt….just empty and defeated.
They always say mom’s need self care…but who has the freaking time for that?!?
But I’ll tell ya….
SELF CARE ISN’T SOMETHING YOU DO…IT’S A STATE OF BEING.
And I can tell you that now I rise easily (often at 530am), excited to start my day (yup, and sometimes my coffee is even decaf *gasp*)
When I snuggle into my cool sheets at the end of the day…it feels so freaking good!
I feel relaxed, peaceful, grateful, and joyful….because my days are overflowing with awesomeness instead of feeling chaos and endless things to do.
Every day I encounter women who are feeling stuck with too many things on their plates, wishing they could have just the tiniest of breaks from the endless to dos, or carrying the heaviest loads of managing life, work, & home.
And despite ALL of this, they still go to bed feeling guilty and….just plain ol’ not enough.